I never actually finished that last post. I'm not too worried about it though.

The bill that was mentioned did get paid, and the late fee did get removed. This month's bills got paid as well, and now all I have is 4.00 to my name. Which is enough for me to cook some ramen. Not beef stew.

I'm done with school for the semester, and I even passed all my classes. All three of them. Which means I have absolutely nothing to do with myself until January 10. Hopefully I can get some cleaning done and some more redecorating my room in that time.

I really enjoy fragment sentences. And using and to start a sentence. and overusing comma's.

I don't have really have that much to report so I'm actually going to write out my resolutions, partly because my two best friends read this so I'm hoping they can keep me accountable.

1. Maintain some kind of consistent sleep schedule. I'm not opposed to going to bed at 4:30 am as long as I can do that every night.

2. start eating breakfast. I really really like breakfast, but I never actually eat it. I'd like to build up to the point where I cook my own breakfast. But I'll be happy with a bowl of cereal or some oatmeal. Oh! or some fruit. mmmm.

3. Say what I want to say, when I want to say it and make no apologies for how it may seem to other people. I have a voice and opinions and I should feel secure enough to make that known to life outside the internet.

4. Experience more things. I'm 23 years old and all the stories I have to tell are sad,tragic and dramatic. I want more.

5. Wear more colors.

6. Follow through with things.

7. Be less nosy, and less insecure.

That's all that I can think of right now, I plan on adding on to it and come the first of the year, hopefully update as to how I'm doing.

I've reverted back to old ways. I paid a bill late and feel very hopeless about my money situation. I haven't really been cooking, but I've went as far as to look up a beef stew recipe which is a step back in the right direction.

I've been feeling depressed with way the world is working and the people in, which makes me not really care about being a productive member in society. I want to not be around these people that make me grimace, I don't want to be one of them.

It's been a while. Things have changed. As far as being a functional woman in life, I have had some slight success, and some set backs.

I've hardcore cleaned my room and hung up pictures. It had a massive effect on my level of happiness. I've kept my kitchen clean and wash dishes on a regular basis. I've managed small dinner, that don't include rice. I'm hoping to manage a batch of potato soup before the weather gets too cold.

I also bought a nice pair of boots.

I have countless lists going on at any given moment in the day reminding me what I need to be doing, where I need to be, and what I need to accomplish. I have a planner that I have been using since June. I also created a budget and haven't been overdrawn in quite some time.

I have been trying desperately to find my own sense of style and coming to terms with who I am, this includes dying my hair every other month and wearing leggings and voicing my opinion.
Oh. I also wear red lipstick and have black fingernails and toe nails. (which is chipped right now,so I look a bit trashy.)

I think I'm done with romantic interests for the moment, I simply don't think they are ready to deal with the transformation I'm going through. Which is fine, a bit lonely on these cold nights but I'm better off in the long run.

I do laundry when I run out of clothes. Such as jeans and shirts, not underwear. If I run out of clean underwear I just put on a dress and red lipstick and say I'm feeling risky and flirty. Which is fine.
I don't really have a healthy sleep or eating schedule and I still procrastinate pretty badly.
I have trouble throwing things away, so I'm still a bit of a hoarder? horder? but, you won't find a dead cat under my things. I'm not that bad.



The point is, even though I haven't written often I'm still trying. And in some ways I'm succeeding and other's I still need to push through. I haven't given up on this process and haven't given up on myself. I will be a better version of myself.

I will make rice that is edible.